An update

Apologies for being quiet. Things have been quite hectic. I finished my job at the end of March. I then got a new job which I start in May. It's not my dream job (I just missed out on that one), but it keeps the bills paid, is closer to home and is very similar to the last job I did. So I should be able to hit the ground running. 

I also did another cycle. It resulted in another BFN. Three cycles and no pregnancy. It's really tough. In July I am a year since I lost my baby. And right now I don't want to hear, see or know about anyone else's pregnancy. There is a part of me that is just trying to enjoy every precious second with my little man, because I am blessed to have him and know it may be a long time or not at all before I have another. So my husband and I have decided to go back to what we know has worked. I am going to start a very strict two week detox (instead of the four), he is back on a bunch on nutritional support - and I am going back to get reviewed by my doctor. I would like  to do one more IUI, and if it still doesn't work it might be time to consider IVF. But we will see what he says. 

This journey is tough. Whether it be primary or secondary infertility - the cycling, and disappointment is hard. Really hard. And the financial commitment - well sometimes I feel like I am just throwing money away. 

I hope your journeys are a bit more positive than mine right now :)