Sometime between now and next week, my baby's heart stopped beating. It is a year since we found out our 13 week old pregnancy had ended. I didn't think the year anniversary would get to me as much as it has. I have been sleeping badly, having really vivid crazy dreams. Nothing in particular, but not feeling great about stuff. It was even mentioned to me today how tired I sounded.
Has anyone else gone through this? Around the anniversary - just sleeping badly? It is hard to forget it, as we found out the day before my birthday. So it is now a double anniversary. I think I am okay, but these nights are really tough.
Tomorrow we go in for IVF counselling and seeing my doctor to work out the IVF plan. I still have not ovulated, so still a few weeks away before we start. Will update after tomorrow's visits.
I always have a harder time the week leading up to the anniversary of our loss than the actual date of the loss. I think it is normal due to the anticipation. Hugs to you!!
ReplyDeleteHope your Ivf meetings/appointments go well. Thinking of you!! I will be cheering you on.
Thank you for sharing your csxn experience. I appreciate it!!